Friday, 22 July 2016

"An evaluation on the ending of friendships" from 22.07.16

My main question since you deserted me:
- Am I just as fickle as you?

My tentative answer to this question:
- !FIELD NOT FOUND!

My observations of your behaviour:
- You always adapt to your surroundings
- In a way, we all do
- We learn to speak louder when grandma's around and softer when it's baby's nap time
- But this feels different
- You adopt whatever the person you are with holds most dear
- You pull it closer to yourself and in the process, closer to them, a desperate attempt to hold onto someone before they burn out like a match

My main question reworded:
- Do I also change who I am just to fit in with people?

Supporting evidence for answer: "no"
- I did not burn all my bridges in an attempt to keep myself safe, like you did

An elaboration
- I only burned most of my bridges
- not all
- it's not the same
- please don't let it be the same

Supporting evidence for answer: "yes"
- I was always so quick to placate your demands
- I was always ready to do whatever it took to keep you
- (That didn't stop you)
- (I'm probably worse than you)
- (oh dear god)
- (I'm a fraud)
- (What am I even sure about myself?)

Conclusion drawn from evaluation:
- I don't know.
- I hope desperately for the sake of my precariously pieced together personality that I'm not

Please.

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